Life in it's Direction

 Life is strange. We are born, taken care of by our parents, go to school, go to more school, get a job, maybe get married, maybe have kids, retire, get old, then need another caretaker until we pass. 

When you put it in the simplest terms, this is the gist of it. It's how I see it, anyway, and everyone goes through a similar cycle. Reading that over, makes me feel like it's the most meaningless thing. But I really don't think that. I know. No, I believe that life has so much meaning. I'm at a point in my life now that I want to find my own meaning in life. But, I'm not fortunate enough to drop everything, go to some retreat in Tahiti or wherever and be silent for a year. Unfortunately, I have to discover it amongst all of life's struggles.

So how do you do this? Surely there are others feeling at least similar to me. Of course, there are all kinds of self-help books out there that will tell you how to live your best life. Sure, you can follow all of their steps and maybe even have a happier life. But, does that still answer the question of what your purpose is? You can also go to church or whatever your religious affiliation and seek your purpose through a higher power. I by no means want to diminish the importance of spirituality here. However, I have also tried this. Maybe this is something I should have stuck with. Or, maybe that's just my guilty conscience of growing up catholic. Whatever the reason, in my experience, they tell you that all your answers and needs will be met through God. Through God you will find your true purpose. If this is all true, why haven't I found mine yet? Again, thinking out loud here, but maybe I should stick with it longer and time will tell. 

In all honesty, I want to live a long, healthy, and fulfilling life. As I'm sure we all do. 

Sometimes I get down and out when thinking about this deep shit. There are people out there right now literally changing the world (for better or worse) while I sit here thinking about it all. Is that the key? Don't just think, act? 

There is a song that I periodically like to listen to that sometimes helps me feel better/ makes me think about life. I have added it here so you can see what you think.