Lost

 How many of you just feel lost and without a purpose? I recently “celebrated” a birthday and now I’m stuck with this feeling that I am just lost. Here I sit, into my thirties and I still don’t know what to do with my life. Am I the only one here? 

I have tried all sorts of career paths yet can’t find the one that screams me. They say if you love what you’re doing you never work a day in your life. Be honest here, is this real? I have yet to find something that I can truly say this. My latest hobby, crochet is actually a new love of mine. I have been racking my brain trying to think of ways to monetize this hobby and make it a career. Can a hobby really turn into a career though? I have actually started making YouTube tutorials (stitchintimecrochet if you are at all interested in learning) but it’s not as easy as it seems to make a living off that idea. Maybe (hopefully) I’m wrong though. Perhaps my mistake is that I quit too soon. I certainly don’t have the answers here but maybe you do. 

If I’m being completely honest though, I would be happy as a clam to be a stay at home mom while my husband brings home the bacon. Maybe that makes me sound lazy. It okay if you think so. But my thinking is that I just haven’t found my purpose yet. But good Lord, will it ever come to me?? 

Not to get too much into God. But, I really do believe that we have have a reason for being here. I just have yet to find mine. 

I warned you this is a very long and boring diary. Love it or hate it, this is me. But maybe, you can relate? 

If you feel the same way or have any thoughts, feel free to drop a comment. I want to hear from you.